After almost 3 years of knowing these people, I’m really giving them a chance to get to know me, well I mean at least I am trying to, if they even care enough. It’s a bit bizarre to think I don’t really know them either, especially after almost a year spending the majority of my hours with them each week and the year before that having them acknowledge my existence. I know the basic things – what’s going on in their life, the big events and the changes they are transitioning into, and the not-so-occasional complaints. But still, I still don’t know them, in the sense of character, because I do not know their insight on things that I actually care about. Sure, they share their views and thoughts on certain topics, but I just feel that most of this has been filtered to be work appropriate. There are eggshells that people are afraid to break with their honesty and it’s a shame because when egg shells break, we can actually get into the yolk, which is after all, the point of the eggshell.
I just feel like we might as well connect to the people that are already in our lives, even if we don’t really want them or view them as part of our lives, they are there and it’s wasted time if we don’t actually get to know them, a wasted opportunity. Maybe it’s just me, but I complain or think about getting new friends, but there are people that I already have in my life (that I know are not creeps or murderers, at least I don’t think so) and I wouldn’t even call them friends because I haven’t cared enough get to know them.
Maybe this has to do with aging, realizing the simple things or just simply being too lazy to search for new. I’m just trying to go back to the basics and appreciate what’s already there instead of constantly seeking something that isn’t.